We want. You, as a writer want something. To tell a story. Have your face on the back of a book jacket above a blurbed bio. The Times Bestseller list. Respect. Something that will outlive you. Your friends want, too. Love. Kids. The ubiquitous catchall happiness. Everyone wants. Some people daydream about it. If I had a little more control. A little change. A chance. Some peace and quiet. Most of them wouldn’t change too much. Nothing major, anyway. No one wants to seem greedy. It’s not like they want billions. Just a couple million. A little raise. An extra bedroom. Just so I can retire early. Put my kid through college. Pay off the house. Move to Myrtle Beach and golf year-round. It’s not too much to ask.
But the people who don’t want billions are the people who go to casinos on weekends instead of their offices. Who’d rather gamble instead of work. They’re the ones who find reasons not to go out and make even their modest dreams happen. They want, but they don’t need. The difference isn’t greed. It’s ambition, that strange mix of ego and determination. Ambition is about accomplishment. Doing something. Creating something. Building something. Improving something. The most interesting stories are written about ambitious people. People who’ve funneled a narrow focus into their eyes and charged at their target with foolhardy abandon. You only ever have a book in you if it comes out of you. You’re only going to get better with work. Your character is only going to be interesting if he’s got something he has to do, to understand, to figure out, whatever mix of needs that creates the requisite hunger in him to go after it. To save someone, solve something, find himself, reach, attain—or not. These are the stories of lives lived. As opposed to lives spent shuffling through daydreams and milquetoast contentedness.
A hungry writer, like all the turks streaming out of the Chambers Street station downtown, is ambitious. It’s an interesting thing to be ambitious. It means that you not only want something, but you’re working every day to get it. No one has to tell you to work. You may not know what to do, but you want to learn. You’re humble enough to know when you don’t know. You’re thinking about it even when you’re not. The nest of synapses in your head collapsing into that singular focus, connecting everything back to your story, your work, this life you’ve chosen. You’re doing it.
Think about how interesting it is to be compelled to work like this, and then think about what you’ve been writing. If your story is going to be worth reading, your character has to be doing something too. Hiding, searching, working, running, chasing. Subtle, complex things; lying, thinking, strategizing, doubting, worrying. You have to be willing to almost break him, to take almost everything away, to leave him stranded, cornered, to flash a blade and mean to use it.
If you’re character’s not doing something then he’s wasting his time. And you’re wasting yours. There has to be a reason, even if it’s subtle. If he hasn’t left the couch in a week what’s he hiding from? What is he waiting for? What’s he afraid of? If he spends all his time in a bar or getting high, what whisper in his heart is he trying to mute? Don’t waste your time. Don’t waste your readers’. If you’ve gotten what you want out of a scene or moment, end it. Keep things moving. There’s no time to waste. Be lean. Be working. Be ambitious. Because I can promise you this: it’s going to take more than you think you’ve got.